For the past few days I have been a busier than usual at the office. That's life and this sort of thing happens. Me doing a little extra work is not what this is about really. The real issue is that for some reason I don't seem to be capable of doing the extra work without pointing it out to other people.
For example, if I get off a particularly frustrating phone call that required more effort than I think it should have and someone happens to be walking by, I grab that person and spout off about the phone call or how much work I have to do in general. If someone isn't walking by, I sometimes go walking around looking for someone to bellyache to. The casual observer might conclude that I can't go above and beyond unless someone else knows I am going above and beyond. Pity those whose desks are close to mine.
I have noticed that some other people like to do this as well, but I don't think I have worked with anyone who quite reaches my level. I have reached a point that is almost legendary.
I am not sure why I do this. Is it some deep insecurity that I am subconsciously trying to address? Is it my competitive nature to make a big deal about what I do? Do I just want an excuse to be doing something other than work? My vote is on all of the above.
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You get it from your Mom. Since your love language is acts of service maybe it is hard for you to give acts of service? : )
Wow....deep insight...perhaps another layer of the onion is being peeled back?
I am like an onion. I have layers...
If there is no one walking by or near you, you could always write a blog about the issue...oh wait.
you work?!
I have no layers. I am a simple one layer cake without icing. Oh wait, that would mean that instead of layers I have lots of ingredients...anyone want to psycho analyze that?!
I think hard work is often unrecognized. Kudos to you for trying to help people understand what you are attempting to achieve in the midst of squalid humanity.
aren't all the layers of an onion the same???
you just want more credit.
I think I may do something similar. I like people to know what I've done or if it was hard. Is it egoism? I wondered this last week if it was an unrecognized, subconscious need to feel important? If any of that is true, does it mean I have to stop? That would be hard. I somtimes think bosses need help seeing what you actually do too. (Or is that justifying my behavior...I'm so confused.)
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